This morning the sun beckoned me onto the beach early in the day. How several from yesterday! Yesterday I wore a goose down jacket and hooded fake fur jacekt, a ski hat, and winter gloves and walked uphill into a 30 mile an hour wind. Still, I was cold. The sea tossed and contorted before it threw itself across the beach in foaming wave after foaming wave.
This morning the wind had abated and the sea, though detonating into big combers and dashing up onto the beach in breaths of foam was more quieter. And improbably beautiful. As my on-going search for beach glass continued, I stopped-up sporadically just to savor the constant, but always several and ever-changing, beauty of "my" beach.
I've been perusal and reseacrching The Private secret for over a decade; this morning the sea discovered more. I remember listening to Ibrahim counseling to go "pet your cat." I grin because for me, walking the beach is a cat caressing session. I feel wholly relaxed here, continually in awe of the ever-changing constantness of the sea and the beach, immersed in its beauty, and open to an enlarged understanding.
My walks by the sea disapate my cares and worries as if they get blown away by the breeze. In their place a peacefulness settles in my being. My chequebook now is even as a bit more anemic than it was yesterday, yet I am so more less anxious and clutching just about it. Like the sea, it is waht it is; it will change. I mused this morning just about how several the ocean was now compared to yesterday, a certain lesson in how the illusions of now bear no relationship to the illusions of tomorrow -- a TUT message of a few weeks back.
I don't ask the ocean to be now the way it was yesterday or last week. I ne'er think just about how it will look tomorrow. I just accept that it will be there tomorrow and I will go out to meet it; I will enjoy it profoundly. No matter how it appears, I'll just love it. What a lesson for my life! I'll just love it no matter how it appears. Would-be that I were so casual and trusting just about the flow of cash in my billfold as I am just about the flow of waves across the beach.
How cool that the Universe conspired to bring me here! To this beautiful place of beach lessons and insights. Once I am that easy just about the flow of cash in my wallet, it will flow! It is flowing now! You see, in my early days, the lack of flow was acute. As a child, I was traumatized by the money scarceness in my life. Slowly, with the help of galore good people, and now the sea, I am reclaiming my birthright to abundance.
This morning, I watched the gull gathering on the beach as I, an interloper in their world, approached and detected that they just graciously flew away, ignoring me. What a great thing to emulate; once the lack throughts intrude in my mind, I can give them wings and just let them graciously fly above me.
I have found a number of blue beach glass pieces this week. They delight me because there are fewer of them than the clean and brown pieces. A week or so ago, I'd thought, "I'd actually like a red piece," ne'er having found one in my time here. Once in a piece I've thought, "A red piece would-be be fun" but without any great intensity that I get a red piece. It would-be be just fun to have one. I have it! Yesterday, I found a absolutely round, fat, red piece of beach glass.
Now, I understand the step of detachment better. A good big fat million would-be be good to have but I'm just going to walk on knowing that I'll be delighted by what I see, hear, and feel as I go. For me, the block to my abundance has been the early trauma and the resistance that set up. Now, I cognize it's just finding a red piece.
Do I cognize that my red piece was a production of my thought and energy? Yes! Do I cognize that the message I detected on my tape just about not expecting keep for my dreams from folk who have given up theirs was absolutely regular for me? Yes! Do I cognize that all is well? Yes!
If I should forget again, I'll just return to the beach.
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